Hello, welcome and thank you for visiting! I have to admit, straight off the bat, that I'm already wondering what I'm doing here in blog land. What do I have to say that hasn't already been said? Who would want to read about little ol' me, when there are gobs of other bloggers oozing creativity out of their pores -- people who have been blogging for much longer and who can probably write much more gracefully than I?
[Editor's note: Hi, my name is Caiti, and I suffer from Impostor Syndrome.]
In spite of these fears, I
am here. A lot of that has to do with my first experience at
Squam Art Workshops this past September. In February, I had been reminded of the retreat's second year through a post on
Decor8, and within a 5-minute span I had written my check and dropped it in the mail. Totally impulsive and completely unlike me. It would have been much more "me" to think about it for days and days, before ultimately talking myself out of the retreat.
My ever-present "impostor syndrome" kicked into high-gear when I found myself at Squam, sitting in a dining hall surrounded by many of the amazing aforementioned bloggers, people I had been idolizing as amazing creative souls who seemed to be part of an inner circle of artists, like the popular girls at school. Possessing some ineffable coolness that I felt I was lacking. But something shifted over the course of the weekend as I observed everyone's interactions. I saw everyone there-- "famous blogger" or not-- looking for nothing more than to express their creativity and be surrounded by kindred spirits. To seek real connection.
And that simple insight was inspiring to me.
Connection. That's all we're looking for. What good is it doing me by placing these bloggers and artists on a pedestal? They have sought connection in the same way I am now inspired to do. There is room in blog land for more voices, including my own, and we will each find kindred spirits along the way.
So, at the dawn of the new year, I launch this blog with the intentions of making connections with other creative souls in the world, in hopes that I can bring those warm, fuzzy and creative feelings from Squam into my everyday life. To live more truthfully and honestly. To share moments of creativity and simplicity that give me joy. To chronicle my
Courageous Year. To celebrate beauty and gratitude everyday.
Thank you for joining me.
